SummerTime

Now is the time for me to
prepare for
the college
application
process

Im part of Class 2010

Reality is around the corner

I have to mature up and
face the world

I have to do
what I have to do in
order to survive

I have to learn all of this
during the summer time

My Personal Philosphy

"The road less traveled produces the most growth"

This means that the path you choose may not be right for you
if everyone else is on it

Your change may come when you pick a road that has never be
walked or ran upon.

The road will less travelers may allow you to make new friends and gain new
experiences.

Robert Frost said he saw a road that diverged. He had to make a choice. Which road should he choose?? Mr. Frost chose the road less traveled!!

We can follow his example :)

Junior Year

Junior Year has officially ended
Things are going hectic
im sitting at Daemen College
COLLEGE SUMMITING
LMAO

Thinking about
what i could have
done differently
grades
friends
boys

my GPA did improve

things right now are going goooood
my friends are going gooood
I got a new booooo
GOO ME

im happier now than ive been in the
last five months

College is around the corner
and i feel that im somewhat prepared to
handle a higher level of education
an Xperience like no other

With all the tears shed
friends made
tests failed and passed
books read
Regents passed and failed

College is coming

Junior ended a goood note
and im glad cause it started on a crazii
one

That was the Summation of my Juniior Year

Waiting

What am i waiting on?
Seems like
im waiting
on someone
to love me for
me
LOL
that might be
funny but
everyone
wants someone to
appreciate
them
to hold them
to make them feel
special
teach them
new things
learn new things
with them
someone they can bring home
to their parents without any
regrets
someone they can take out
and know that
when they go back to that restaurant
they will be welcome
i'm looking for all these things
but i have heard that good
things come to those who wait
but i think that better
things come to those who abstain

My Inspiration

INDIA.ARIE LYRICS I Am Not My Hair

[Talking:]Is that India.Arie? What happened to her hair? Ha ha ha ha haDat dad a dat da [4x] Dad a ooh
[Verse 1]Little girl with the press and curl Age eight I got a Jheri curlThirteen I got a relaxerI was a source of so much laughterAt fifteen when it all broke offEighteen and went all naturalFebruary two thousand and twoI went and didWhat I had to doBecause it was time to change my lifeTo become the women that I am insideNinety-seven dreadlock all gone I looked in the mirror For the first time and saw that HEY....
[Chorus]I am not my hairI am not this skinI am not your expectations no noI am not my hair I ma not this skin I am a soul that lives within[Talking:]What'd she do to her hair? I don't know it look crazyI like it. I might do that.Umm I wouldn't go that far. I know .. ha ha ha ha
[Verse 2]Good hair means curls and wavesBad hair means you look like a slaveAt the turn of the century Its time for us to redefine who we beYou can shave it off Like a South African beautyOr get in on lockLike Bob MarleyYou can rock it straightLike Oprah WinfreyIf its not what's on your headIts what's underneath and say HEY....
[Chorus]
[Bridge](Whoa, whoa, whoa)Does the way I wear my hair make me a better person?(Whoa, whoa, whoa)Does the way I wear my hair make me a better friend? Oooh(Whoa, whoa, whoa)Does the way I wear my hair determine my integrity?(Whoa, whoa, whoa)I am expressing my creativity..(Whoa, whoa, whoa)
[Verse 3]Breast Cancer and ChemotherapyTook away her crown and gloryShe promised God if she was to surviveShe would enjoy everyday of her life oohOn national televisionHer diamond eyes are sparklingBald headed like a full moon shiningSinging out to the whole wide world like HEY...
[Chorus 2x]
[Ad lib]If I wanna shave it close Or if I wanna rock locksThat don't take a bit away From the soul that I gotDat da da dat da [4x]If I wanna where it braidedAll down my backI don't see what wrong with thatDat da da dat da [4x][Talking:]Is that India.Arie?Ooh look she cut her hair!I like that, its kinda PHATI don't know if I could do it.But it looks sharp, it looks nice on herShe got a nice shaped headShe got an apple headI know right?It's perfect.

HEYHEYHEY

hey fellow human beings
Many of you may know me and
many of you may not

FOr the last few months i have been struggling
but i think things have just gotten
better
i got a wonderful best friend
A Sane family
and i just might pass my regents

I have health and strength
havent had an asmtha attack recently

Everyday i get stronger

CAN YOU SAY THE SAME THING??

Last Chance

Maybe he was my last chance
Maybe he was last opportunity
to prove i can be true

Maybe he was my last
But i going to achieve big things
Seems like i will never find
someone to love me like he did
take me places like he did
someone who basically could do everything
that he did

I miss him like crazy
but i need to move on
i need to do other things but
wait because i might never get
him back
she may make him happier
than i could evr
she may love him more
than i could possibly love him

i need to get over him
because i hurt him first
i need to get over him
because he just mightnot be
my last chance
i just might have
another one
floating around
but i need signs
cause im feeling
soo down and alone
he's soo peachy and happy with
her and im just sitting around loving
him when he aint even mine

Gentlemen if any one of you
want to prove me wrong
that i can love you
instead of loving him and he aint
even mine
give me a shout
Because im ready to get more chances

Its Amazing

Its Amazing how
i continue to
allow people to put
me down
its amazing how
i keep denying myself
chances to love again
its amazing how
every boy that
passes my way wants to
talk about sex
its amazing how
that same boy i had a crush
on 3yrs ago
pops up and has me thinking
good thoughts
its amazing how close
i am to going to college
its amazing how close i am to being on my own
its amazing how things, people, and places change
all i know is that life is amazing

Shaking My Head

Missing him like a
fat kid on a diet misses food
Never knw how much
i loved him until he was gone
He's hers now and I constantly wish that i could
get him back
Everytime i see them together
I mentally smack myself
cause i did him wrong
my actions cost me alot
I wish i could go back and do
things all over again
but i cant
sitting here shaking my head
Shaking My head
because i wonder if i will
hurt every man who
tries to love
me
will i cheat on every
man who tries to be right by me
shaking my head wondering
if any guy whose knws what
i did would take a chance
at loving me
hope the answer to all these
questions is no because
my neck hurts from shaking my head

I'm Sorry

Its been brought to my attention
that the one i used to love
was deeply hurt by my actions

a dear friend of mine was
deeply hurt because he fell
for her and she for him

Other close friends of mine have
been hurt by my reckless behavior

I cant go back in time and
change what i did
i cant go back and undo my actions
i cant reverse those two days where
i got caught up in the moment
and forgot the one i loved who was
away from me at the time

But one thing i want him to know is that
IM SORRy

sorry for hurting him
sorry for causing him pain
sorry for making him look like a fool
sorry for abusing his love

I feel bad because he was giving
me everything
evrything that i ever wanted
and that everything was
he loved me for who i was
and not what i look like

I feel guilty knwing that my actions
caused him soo much pain and sleepless nights

Ryan From the bottom of my heart
I am telling you SORRY
you may not accept my apology
my apology may not erase your pain
But you cant deny the fact that
i finally admitted to my wrong
and apologized to you

Its not gonna be easy to get
adjusted to you and her
but at least i have
in my memory
the good and bad times
when we laughed together
cried together
played drums together
you on snare
me on bass
I'll remember those days when
you wrote me poems and
i remember how much fun we had when
we went to the beach

I'll remember everything because
the good outweighs that bad
I didnt realize what i had until i lost you
I lost you when i did what i did
You may never want me back
But at Least i said SORRY

A Change

Feeling like a brand new person
ever since i did
what was right for
me
not worrying about
what anybody else had to say
because in the end
it was my feelings on the line
he hit me
made me cry
i had enough
of him
after a year and
a few weeks
people kept telling me
i could do better
so i went and did what was
best
and i became a free lady
and i feel liberated because its
all about me now

Funny Thing called Love

this thing called love
where can i buy it
this thing called love
who is going to give
it to me for xmas?
this thing called love
where can i go get
it for free?
this thing called love
where can i get
it without risking my
heart to pain?
this thing called love
i cant see it so does it
take faith to believe
in it?
this thing called love
why does it only show
its face on February 14th
this thing called love
why when you love hard
you sometimes get hurt
this thing called love
where can i get it?
this thing called love
funny love
hurtful love
sorrowful love
ominous love
L-O-V-E
can someone tell
me when love is
available
Cupid isnt doing his job

When

When will this pain end
Cause im tired
of hurting
tired of walking
around
acting like
everything
is okay

Tired of feeling
like a sideline hoe
in my own relationship

Tired of feeling the guilt
of hurting the boy i loved since i became
a teenager
hurting him twice in one yr
thats just crazy
He was there for me when nobody else was
Now im with some this other kidd who dont
or may not be worthy of my love

When will i get over the fact
that my first love
may never want me back
if i try to go back

Chicks walk around
acting pretentious
behaving like they know but
they dont
acting as if they my friends

Boys acting like they
tough
disrespecting
me calling me
out of my name

When will all my wounds
heal
when will i ever find
closer
when will everything
be all right??

WHEN!!

Pull Your Pants Up

Boys don't seem
to understand
the need
to wear their pants
on their waists


They don't
seem to understand
that this trend
originated in jail

Where the inmates
couldn't wear belts
because they might
commit suicide

They don't seem to understand
that this trend is not attractive

Young men get irate when people
classify them as thugs, but if you don't want to be
labeled as one don't dress like one!! make sense?

if you want to be classified as an intelligent
brother dress like one and pull those pants in
tuck those shirts in
nobody but your special one
wants to see your
undergarments.

My friend
Elijah
seems to have
issues with
pulling
his pants up
Hope he
learns soon enough
that wearing the
pants below the waste
is the example of action
without taste

Fellas
more LADIES
not birds
would give you
the time of day
if you pulled
your pants UP!!

Caroline Speaking...

Hey Fans&&Haters
things are changing
my birthday is
April Ninth

The economy is getting
worse
Hoes, Skanks etc
ppl like that annoy me

spoiled kids
annoy me as well

When we break
down each other
thats wrong
how about we
focus on building each
other
a brick and a spoonful of
cement cant do much
but a yard of bricks
and some buckets of
cement can build a house

If you dont like
what im saying close
your ears
dont like what im wearing
close your eyes
dont like
me period
Save the drama
if your mama aint
available
Obama is

Sorry for being random
But thats how i speak
get with it

CANT!!

We cant go back
to how things
used to be
cant go back
to being the
same

Things are
happening
that shouldnt

That lil chick
Dina dont know whats
coming at her

Maybe he dont
see it
but i do

It hurts to know you
put yur hands on me
and didnt even
say sorry

I cant do this
if yu gonna act like
that

Dina Likes You
When I say nothing
I give her Power
Puttin her arms round
you
sitting next to you
everydamn
chance she
get
All dat needs to stop

Cause i Cant
do this

I cant keep getting
disrespected

I dont see no lust
i juss see you letting
her dumb behind
disrespect me

BUT I REFUSE TO
I WONT
I CANT
BE DISRESPECTED

Single

May be better off
on my own
doing me instead of
doing me and you
thats alot of work
too much to hold on to
too many tears shed
You probably
thinking bout taking me
to bed

Maybe im better off
taking care of me
and not having to worry about what
your doing or who your doing

Maybe this would take
unnecessary stress
off my back
cause this chick is too
blessed to
be stressed

Ive been hurt too
many damn times
to allow myself to
be hurt again
for the thousandth
time
dont make
no sense
no matter how you look at
it

People see us and
think im totally
happy
i was....

but maybe im
better off
SINGLE

Hurts

Hurts to know
i put my trust in you
hurts to know you knew
my past
and still hit me
hurts to know that
you find it funny
when i tell you some
thing bothers me
Hurts to know
that i gave you my
all
but you pushed me down
and helped me fall
was i not worth your respect
where you couldve kept your hands to
yourself
That hurts to know
that you say im
your wifey
but you treat me like
im one of your boys
Hurts to know
that she is still
in the picture when i
told you wats really
good
but if things persist im
gone
and she can have you
cause i know her lil
behind still like you
she'll probably rejoice if
me and you break up
but im tired of feeling this way
and i damn sure dont need
no man like yourself
to validate who i am
But it hurts nonetheless
to know
i did this
and loved you like that
it hurts to know
that you hurt me and you aint
do shyt about it

January 20th 2009

The First Black
Pres
aka
Barack
Hussein
Obama

Became the 44th
President
of
the
United
States
Of
America

That day
will
be forever
imbeded
in
our memories

From his
swearing-in
His charismatic
speech
to
Aretha Franklin's
splendid rendition
He Made History

Sitting in the
library
During 5th Period
@ RRGHST
I witnessed
history
Not in the making
But being made
official

Do the
American
People
Understand,
Appreciate
And
Value
This change in
history and
our
government??

Hopefully they
do
'Cause we
may never
see this again
or will we?

Youth

The most important tool
No time to act a fool
stay in school
theres no
time to worry about
whose popular
or cool


On time
you should go to
bed
so that you can
gain knowledge
quicker instead
your mind, body, and soul
must be feed


Its not all about you
theres only things a few
that you know


There are others who
are in pain
while you constantly looking
in the mirror
acting all vain

The time you spend buying
expensive attire
is time that you
can you use
to benefit others
you
and those you come in contact with

Remember youth
you have the future in the palm of
your hand
what you do with it is the key
are you going to crush it?
or mold it towards a successful purpose?

To Whom It May Concern

those going through something
those hurting from
the inside out
those thinking their
life aint worth
living

things are changing.
Get your life together
therez no need to be
depending on
others to
benefit you

Live life for you
and nobody else
things are going to get better
aint no need to fret

we may have never met
but there are things that
you cant count on
Bet

Boys
$$$
Girls
Sometimes friends

all these things come and
go
but are you ready
to depend on you
when all things
fall apart?

• To prepare:
• love
• care
• protect
• admire
• cherish
• acknowledge
• explore
• Who YOU Are!!!!

Quotes from Tatiana's Math Class

"You may indeed be a very busy person, but rememeber that filling your head with thoughts of how overwhelmed you are only exacerbates the problem making you feel even more stressed than you already do"

"Relationships can be challenging enough with out the added burden of keeping past issues alive and vibrant in your mind"

"If you're carrying around ot still holding on to the issues from your past, it may be time to simply let them go"

"Happy people know that regardless of what happened yesterday, last month, years ago or what might happen later today, tomorrow, or next year-now is the only place where happiness can actually be found and experienced"

"Be happy for this moment. This moment is your L.I.F.E."

Struggle is My Middle Name

365 days
12 months
52 weeks
24 hours
per
7 days
I struggle
I struggled to grow
laugh
smile
have fun
play around

But i have decided to struggle no more
this may be a struggle in itself
soo i will be struggling but
i will be living one day at a time

You cant tell me it will get better
till you know what i ve been through and what im
gooing through now

***********
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I keep crying
do you think my tears
are for you?
***********
its not everyday
that i can smile
a Genuine smile
Maybe i can
start todai

by living
instead of
struggling

December 19th, 2008

On December 19, 2008
Something happened
Something that
was supposed to be
a grand event
That something
was the birth of
Jocelynn
Grace
Marie
Bell

This something
should have made
everyone
involved happy

But it
became a tradegy
Ms. Bell
passed away b4 she
had time to grow
and be nurished

She will be missed
God called one of his
angels home early

R.I.P Babygirl

In 2009 Change is Mine

2008 has ended

but life continues

things in my life are

in need of a Change

there are people

that need to be

cut off

there are people

that need to 

be brought

closer

i need to live my life

for me

attend to me

care for me 

love me

for me

'cause aint

nobody else

gonna do it for me

i already started 

two days ago

i watched a movie

by myself

with buttery popcorn

and champagne in a 

glass

i think thats a

damn good start